"Is change always a good thing?"
As a woman who always has my career in mind, it’s inevitable. And in this episode, we see that change in my life is on the horizon -- and not always in the good way.
My career is really blooming, and I couldn't be happier. Thank God Matt is finally behind me, and I am looking forward at the new changes that are happening for me: The blog is beginning to really gain some momentum, the collection with Bauble Bar is locked down, my assistant is working really hard for me, and an additional new job as a morning talk show host is in the works. I AM BUSY, AND I AM HAPPY.
In my perfect world, everything would seamlessly come together: I would find a rhythm between all of my commitments and no part of my life would get neglected…but that's easier said than done!
In this episode, we see a major change happening in my relationship with Tori, and unfortunately it was a change that I never saw coming. During this time in my life, I was SO OVERWHELMED. There weren't enough hours in the day. I was saying "yes" to everything: "Yes, I will be a blogger. Yes, I will host a morning talk show. Yes, I will do a jewelry collaboration with Bauble Bar. And, yes, Tori, I will throw your birthday party." I truly believed I could handle it all.
When I took Tori for "Birthday Shopping" and "Birthday Botox," I truly thought that was going to be fun for her. We love to shop, we love to pamper ourselves, and so I genuinely thought she would enjoy those moments of me treating her to them… And honestly, the botox wasn't intended to offend her. Most gals with a wrinkle or 2 would love to get rid of that frown, right?!
Unfortunately, this photo shoot with Casey, an LA based photographer, had been scheduled for months, and it happened to fall on the night of Tori's birthday party. He was in town for one day, and I wanted to take advantage of it. In my mind, we would shoot some pictures that morning and early afternoon, and then I would meet up with Tori and the girls in time for the party that night. Sounds like a plan, right?But Tori wasn't having it, and quite frankly, I was shocked…and here's why: Tori had always been the friend who was 100% supportive of my career. She understood that it came before anything else…and I mean ANYTHING. So I realistically believed that she would understand that this photo shoot was work and that it was one of those things I couldn't change, but that I was sorry.
Never in million years though did I expect Tori to let me have it and use my work against me when she came to see me at the photo shoot. I was furious that she had the audacity to scream and yell at me when I was in the middle of working. I understand where she was coming from looking back at the situation, but I still don't think that it was the appropriate time or place to have that conversation. But when she opened that can of worms, IT WAS ON. At that moment, I knew our relationship had changed somehow…somewhere along the line she changed from supporting my career to using it against me…and how could I fix it?!
P.S. Don't forget all of my looks from each show can be found on my blog TheCourtneyKerr.com!